Eden Chen

Coronavirus Good Friday Reflections

Eden Chen April 10, 2020

I’m sure it has been said many times this year already but it feels like we’re in a movie. A movie where a lot of things have gone wrong. Coronavirus has accelerated and exposed the loneliness, darkness, inequality, and frustration in our hearts and our world. 

It is magnified more today as I slow down and reflect on Good Friday, the most important day in the Christian faith, and the darkest day in history. 

Good Friday is particularly an emotional day, because it was the day that Carolyn and I were told that our daughter was not viable. I remember going to Good Friday service after hearing the news from the doctors and thinking about Jesus on that cross. I never felt so comforted and cared before. How did God the father feel as he sent his son to die for me? 

In order to understand the greatness of the gospel – the good news that Jesus died for our sins so that we could be made right with God, and therefore know Him – I also need to understand why it is that we need the gospel so much. There’s no better time to remind ourselves about our need for God than on coronavirus Good Friday. 

ME: That starts with why I need the gospel, and the depth of brokenness in my own heart. In my nature I am selfish. I don’t care about anyone as I care about myself. I want to be great because I believe that I am great and because I’m afraid that I’m not. I search for meaning in all the wrong places even though I know where true joy is found. I make the same mistakes over and over. I have no self control. I don’t do the things I want to do. I see all the brokenness in the world. I have the resources to make a difference but I don’t do anything. I always want more, it’s never enough. People annoy me when they waste my time and get in my way and can’t offer me anything. Even the good things I do, I do because I want people to see. 

WORLD: Coronavirus, like almost everything else, hits people that can’t afford it the most. People need to risk their lives to work because they can’t afford to stay home. We continue to blame systems – capitalism, socialism, republicans, democrats. Every system is run by sinful humans that don’t care for their fellow humans. More than 50% of kids in my neighborhood school are foster kids. That means they don’t live with their father OR mother. Where will they all end up? What hope do we have when our father and mother can’t care for us? People are dying alone in hospital rooms. Ms. Linda, who we served with in inner city Anacostia at Little Lights died today. She was a mom to thousands of kids. Thank you for being an example. We mourn her death, what a light in this dark world. 

We all need the gospel today as much as we needed the gospel yesterday and as much as we’ll need the gospel tomorrow. I am not ok. You are not ok. This world is not ok. 

May today’s darkness remind us of our need for God. 

“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it” -John 1:5

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